Blah.

I am not heartbroken anymore. I am not tortured by some guy... sure I have my moments and I certainly have my memories, but I am over it all and fully ready to move on.

So why am I the new face of emo lately??

I think it's because I want a relationship and in a sick, twisted way, I want the ability to be that heartbroken.

I haven't been in a real relationship since high school and yes I know I'm young and still have time and all that, but I need to be with someone. I've been alone for way too long.

And I actually and truthfully don't care anymore... about what other people are doing, who other people are doing, etc. I just know that that's not what I want. As much as I want it. It isn't what I actually want.

I want love.
I want the chance have my core shaken.

I want my life changed.

I want a chance. And I want something real.

It's time for something legit.

There.

I finally know what I want.

And that's not to say I won't take whatever opportunities come along, but at the end of the day, I'm not looking for a hookup. I'm looking for legit.

Now the big question is how and will I ever find/get it...

To be continued...