I make you come just to watch you leave.

Right before those moments of ecstasy, when you find yourself almost in a trance of passion… where you aren’t entirely sure who’s where or doing what or if they world is even still turning because all you can see and smell and feel and hold is real and is good and is about to unleash some sort of brilliant beast within you that you haven’t summoned in so long, you were sure it had long since left the premises.

And as that moment comes, you almost black out- you remember it all of course, but never with the appropriate amount of intensity fit to explain what just happened. And it feels like an out of body experience that you remember being there for… it is a trance. It is an experience. And it can be summoned. But when and how often and by whom?

I need it now.

You feel it coming- any moment now…. On the brink, right on the edge of something amazing…

"I make you come just to watch you leave." -All Time Low

Oh essay writing... so strikingly similar to unrelated things...

It's High Time...

Get out of the way.

Move.

Breathe.

LIVE.

Do something everyday that makes you feel alive or is a step toward getting what you want.

Work.

Workout.

Feel good about yourself and the life you're leading.

Wear dresses.

Buy boots.

Write about life everyday.

Take the chance of putting yourself and your innermost thoughts and passions on the line. You'll never know how great you can be if you're afraid of being shut down.

Live for you again.

Live in everyday, real ways to make you feel alive.

Remember that YOU CAN. You have before.

Make friends. Take those chances and break out of your comfort zone that hasn't been comforting for some time.

Let the words in books and music move you the way they did when you fell in love with them. Each time. Every time. Over and over again.

Remember that "the body thrives when the heart has a mission."

Make happiness a mission.

Do good.

Be real.

Exist in a big way.

Don't be afraid to be noticed, you know that's what you've wanted all along, but were too afraid to admit to yourself.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us most..."

Or in this case, not inadequacy, but the fear that I was meant to be brilliant and am and no one else in the world will ever fully see it or understand it. And the fear that that most definitely makes me egotistical, selfish, and quite possibly insane.

Don't let that stop you.

It's high time you started living the way you want to. Everyday. Without excuse. Without fear. Without wondering what else there is.

Find it.

Find you.

Find happiness.